[ maybe he's right. she traces the path to this line of thinking, recalls ianthe, and her commitment to power. power at any cost. for coronabeth. toxic as it was, she felt it was so necessary. maybe that was as much as alina deserved. someone with the same unflinching need for power that she had. maybe that was the kind of person she'd become. ]
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Turn people into someone new.
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i had one life until i turned 18
then she came along and made me better
i have power now and nobody can do shit to me anymore
[ More a delusion than a deliberate lie. ]
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Just because of your power?
Because power isn't going to fix this. Power is what caused this.
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It ruined me.
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Instead of just someone that everyone else hates.
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with or without power
i prefer having it than not
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I wouldn't want to give it up.
But I do wonder sometimes if I should.
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sounds like a waste of time to me
doesn't it?
(cw: toxic relationship shit)
[ maybe he's right. she traces the path to this line of thinking, recalls ianthe, and her commitment to power. power at any cost. for coronabeth. toxic as it was, she felt it was so necessary. maybe that was as much as alina deserved. someone with the same unflinching need for power that she had. maybe that was the kind of person she'd become. ]
Maybe so.
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what's the point of wondering about giving up something if there's nothing you'd give it up for?
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