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PETRE DODRESCU,
somewhere in his thirties

MESSAGES | BOOTY CALLS
ETCETERA

no it's not maybe

[ Pessimism seeping through. Maybe he feels it coming from her. Maybe they've both tasted the same poison so many times they can't even tell who is drinking it right now. ]

it's always going to be that way except with her everyone's gonna fuck me over everyone's gonna leave me when i fuck up even my stupid fucking brother

[ Wesley. Caleb wasn't even close to being family. Just a toy, until the day Petre realized he was the one Caleb didn't want to play with anymore. ]

the sooner you realize that the better that's my advice

have u tried less fucking up

have you?

every day babe lol

yeah and how's that working out

well i’m pouring my heart out to you, so about that well

so i guess it's my turn to ask have you tried not caring about fucking up since it doesn't get us anywhere

yeah.
and now people think i'm like, crazy lol. or a bitch.

and maybe i'm both. idk. it's exhausting, being here, trying to exist, to stay human, follow the rules, don't follow the rules.

i just want to be happy, with the people i care about. i just want to be able to look after those people, and have them idk
respect me.
want to keep me safe too. and if i fuck up, it puts them at risk. but everything i do feels like it's somehow a fuck up, so!

[ hm.

Hmmmmm. ]

i got an idea

crawl into a hole??

no that's lame do something fucking insane anything that would fuck things up for you even more idgaf what, let your imagination fly then tell your buddies i made you do it they already wanna kick my ass anyway