[ Well that's a Question™. For a moment he thinks Wesley might've told her what happened in the library before he got kidnapped, but then she wouldn't have phrased it that way. Right? ]
i mean i'm not the nicest guy i just [ don't want him to leave me, ] want him to like me? how terrible are we talking
[ Maybe a month ago, a week ago, even just a few days ago, Petre's answer would've been different. Covered up with a joke or a simple lie, swept under the rug so he didn't have to confront his feelings. Time keeps passing, though, and he keeps being reminded of how alone he really is. ]
sometimes he reminds me of someone i knew back home a long time ago i gave him everything and he still chose someone else
[ And here comes the part that no one ever understands. ]
so i made sure he couldn't have his stupid fucking happy ending not without me
[ A pause. Then in a rush— ]
wes is better than him though he wouldn't do that to me
i guess it depends either you let her have the power and believe it won't happen to you or you become strong enough to make sure she won't succeed if she tries
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i mean
i'm not the nicest guy i just [ don't want him to leave me, ] want him to like me?
how terrible are we talking
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Soul-destroying.
If it were going to benefit you somehow, would just wanting him to like you really stop you?
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sometimes he reminds me of someone i knew back home
a long time ago
i gave him everything and he still chose someone else
[ And here comes the part that no one ever understands. ]
so i made sure he couldn't have his stupid fucking happy ending
not without me
[ A pause. Then in a rush— ]
wes is better than him though
he wouldn't do that to me
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You would do that to him, if he rejected you too.
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depends on how messed up i am
this place does weird shit to me
alina is someone hurting you
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No, I'm not hurt.
But I think I misjudged someone again.
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And I just...
What's stopping that from being me?
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either you let her have the power and believe it won't happen to you
or you become strong enough to make sure she won't succeed if she tries
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I want to trust them.
But how can I trust someone who'd do something like that?
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and what you need to decide is if you want to trust that person or to keep them around
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I want her to be the person I thought she was.
A person who'd never do something like this, to anyone.
[ even though she had told alina over and over again that she was precisely that kind of person. ]
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turn people into someone new
better
[ Technically, he can too. ]
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Turn people into someone new.
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i had one life until i turned 18
then she came along and made me better
i have power now and nobody can do shit to me anymore
[ More a delusion than a deliberate lie. ]
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Just because of your power?
Because power isn't going to fix this. Power is what caused this.
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It ruined me.
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Instead of just someone that everyone else hates.
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with or without power
i prefer having it than not
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I wouldn't want to give it up.
But I do wonder sometimes if I should.
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(cw: toxic relationship shit)
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